summer is in full swing....... Amanda is busy with all sorts of camps, Ben and Caitlyn are still home (for now) with Becky. the baby went home. Is it weird that even though I was exhausted all the time, and I don't want 4 kids that I miss him? I praying for a change. I need a change, for the better, the extreme. I am tired of the status quo. I just feel like something needs to change for us and I am very frustrated that I can't figure out what it is.