A few months ago I found out that because Ben & Cait's adoptions were finalized in 2010 and they were considered "special needs" adoptions, I am going to be the recipient of a rather large tax refund. When I say large, I mean it will allow me to be debt free. Yes, DEBT FREE! This is huge! This is answered prayer, I wondered why their adoptions took so long, God really knew what he was doing, I almost can't believe it, huge. So, this amazing blessing (when the amendment to my taxes actually files) leads me to wonder what exactly I should be prepared for. It gives me such amazing freedom. Freedom from the 8-5 grind, freedom to pursue a ministry opportunity I have been thinking about for years, freedom to serve God with abandon.(which I should be doing anyway, but I worry so much about the future) I'm nervous. I feel like God has something planned for me, something drastic. something my small brain will not be able imagine.... or maybe I'm just imagining things. that's the problem, I just don't know.
And so, I wait and pray. and pray and wait. Your prayers (whoever you are :-) would be greatly appreciated as well.