It has only been a month and I am sooooooo ready for them to go back to school and me to go back to work. I miss my schedule, I miss my quiet time, I miss grown up friends. I just can't seem to get anything done. The house is a mess, I think I forgot to comb Caitlyn's hair for two days and the caseworker is coming tomorrow to visit with Baby Boy (who is doing great!) and I haven't vacuumed in. uh..... I don't remember how long.
I am super concerned about the above mentioned 13 year old and how much longer I can take this (seriously at the end of today's rope) lying, stealing, hoarding, ummm shall we say inappropriate dress, language and action. The dr. just started her on Zoloft two weeks ago in addition to everything else. It was a low dose and I have seen no improvement, so today they upped her to double. Scared about those side effects, but hoping something takes away her anger so I don't feel like I have to protect the other children from her.
Worried about my littles. I hate spending so much time indoors, but it is way too hot to be outside for long and all they want to do is play Wii or watch tv. I am trying to be creative and keep them occupied (cheaply since I am unemployed) but I am not a good enough juggler to keep this circus running.
Lucky for me:
Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed,
for his compassions never fail.
23 They are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.
Lamentations 3:22-23
Sorry for this downer post, but I am trying to keep it real. someday I hope to look back, read this and praise God I survived.
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